I've been thinking a lot about how I really know in my heart that God took total care of us in this move. I do. It's just... well, will he take care of us with our finances?
I've been put on call the last 3 shifts, and that's a fair chunk of change I wasn't earning.
And we're refinancing, and while that isn't going to be that expensive, it takes a little "up front" money to seed the whole thing, {sigh}... just makes me nervous to see those accounts go so low.
It's like they're doing the limbo... each month.
And I worry.
But the truth is, if God could send us to Arizona and find the perfect home, He can make sure that I'm working what I should and being home what I should.
I do have a strong testimony that sometimes I'm just meant to be at home with my kids, instead of at work. I also have a testimony that I've worked a few surprise shifts that helped both financially, but also that I was supposed to be there for THAT woman's labor.
Anyway, once you have a testimony that god loves you and will protect you, how do you keep it as an umbrella over your WHOLE life? I guess that's why I read my scriptures and pray. It's also why I'm grateful I journal/blog. We've been through a lot worse then this. And we'll make it through.
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